我对爱的想法：

因为孤独才找个对象，我也知道不对。
但如果我真的有喜欢到你，这样够了吗?
我知道我有点本，我也不知道为什么，可是我还是想念你。

baby一定喝了酒
不然你不会这样甩着你的头
我们的呼吸开始变的很自由
那就都不要害羞

Now THAT is what I call swag coming out of China! The way Jian Ci sings those lines has got me swearing in all sorts of good ways not allowable on a family-friendly blog. The boys of MIC 男团 have perfectly mastered that sexy laid-back sway that so many of the pretty boys in K-pop still seem to struggle with. These boys can Steal. The. Whole. Show. If you’re in an Asian boy band (knowing my readership, chances are pretty low), watch yo back!

Now for some swag coming out of Taiwan, I present you Jay Chou’s new song, Mine Mine (not to be confused with the sea gulls in Finding Nemo):

First of all, since when did the man learn to dance like that? I mean, obviously in between acting in movies, hosting his own talk show, composing, making his own movies and dramas, producing other music groups, and just being generally f*cking awesome…! I mean honestly, I had to re-watch the video 5 times just to make sure that was Jay dancing and not some crazy body double dancer!

Proving the stereotypes ain’t true. Keep it coming, Asia!

Everything

Is it twisted if XKCD is able to encapsulate what my romantic beliefs? Or to put it another way, is it twisted that I actually find this XKCD comic to be romantic?

I’ll be honest. I haven’t been following the battle plan. Any of it. So it’s not too much of a surprise when I say I feel like absolute rubbish these days. Yesterday night, I half-heartedly told myself I would get back to exercising and doing a little bit of meditation in the morning.

Then I saw this: http://thechicmuse.blogspot.com/

Blown away. Her fashion is this beautiful meld of the clean and elegant sensibilities of European fashion, the brilliantly bright/bold/unafraid colors of Asia, and the loose bohemian styles of southern California. Perfect. Perfectly me.

So many pictures of the beach, of the sun, of the water, and sprawling concrete rooftops. That is ultimately, me.

Inspired me to get my act back together and to not let myself go. It’s time to battle this nasty gray weather!

나는 너무 아프니까 더 많이 웃고있어… 그건 몰랐지?
미안해, 아직까지 다 기억해

너를 잊을래 난 너를 잊을래
아무리 외쳐봐도 그게 안돼
너를 아껴주지 못해 또 후회하네
너를 잊을래 난 너를 잊을래
아무리 외쳐봐도 그게 안돼
네가 웃던 기억속에 또 미쳐가네 (예예)
내가 웃는게 웃는게 아니야
또 내가 걷는게 걷는게 아니야
너의 기억 그 속에서 난 눈물 흘려 너를 기다릴뿐
내가 웃는게 웃는게 아니야
또 내가 걷는게 걷는게 아니야
너의 기억 그 속에서 난 눈물 흘려 너를 기다릴뿐

I’m not going to look at things that I can’t have anymore. Places I can’t go, people I can’t meet, friends I can’t hug, family I can’t have meals with or watch tv with, food I can’t eat…

Because it’s not about that. Here, there are professors who care about me and say things like “every time you come into my office, I get so excited by what you’re doing here.” Here, there are professors who are so invested in helping graduate students do research that they prepare tons of resources for a student they’ve never met before, even though they have barely 15 minutes to meet with me. Here, I have the chance to work with MRIs and on research that I am really actually excited about, without having to worry about being ridiculed.

That is worth the sacrifice. I have to just keep remembering that. I can’t let myself get bogged down by the work, by the paranoia, by the expectations, or even the people who keep trying to tell me that I’m not doing enough already.

Happiness is a state of mind that only I can control. Fuck the rest of that shit out there. Not going to let it get to me.

I’m not going to complain anymore, because I created and accepted this workload, knowing that it was going to be hard and it was going to be stressful

Benefits of being an awesome lab assistant:

My boss called me a “gem” the other day. A gem!

Tomorrow, I’ve been invited to see an MRI in action…how ridiculously cool!!!!!!!!

I am a strict practitioner of the English-only rule in my ESL (English as a Second Language) classroom. Most of my students obey this rule, but I have a few who think they can continue to get away with it. However, I have one student who is either extremely stupid or extremely gutsy. After warning her against using Chinese in our previous class, she resorted to using Chinese, right in front of me.

RIGHT in front of me, she turns to her partner and says, “”哎呀，你做吧!” (Translation: Argh, you do it!) Don’t get me wrong, I understand that when speaking a foreign language, sometimes you get extremely frustrated and you inadvertently revert to your native language.

But um. Her partner was one of the two Spanish-speakers in the class. He’s from Peru and to my knowledge, he doesn’t speak Chinese…

So what’s your take?

No, just kidding. I need to diet from work, or else I might die from over-”eating”. So, to identify a few things I need to eliminate from my so-called diet: anything unnecessary. That means extra meetings, TV shows, Facebook, G-chat, manga, late night meals. The last might seem random, but late night meals mean that I end up staying up later to chat and I get too hyped up by the food to actually fall asleep properly.

It means doing my work efficiently, managing my sleep and work out hours regularly, and eating healthy.

I can’t neglect laundry or dishes either.

EDIT:
Haven’t been following my battle plan too closely lately either. I blame it on the virus for side-tracking me…haven’t been able to exercise.